"Well, gentlemen, when the shit hits the fan, some guys run and some guys stay"
Things blow up all the time when I'm around. I've always ran, I've always taken the easy way out. Who am I kidding, the easy way out is after-all EASY!
"When the going gets tough, stay calm, stay focused! Most importantly, STAY...!"
No more running, I've come to point where I can see now that every time I've ran, I've just lost a little part of me. I just leave huge chunks of who I am behind to save my hide. At the end of the day, what am I saving it for when I can no longer recognize myself?
5 years I've spent running now, it's time to stop, face the fire and move upward and forward. I discovered a thing or two about me'self. I've been dealt with switches and not dials like most people. But also unlike most people, I've been gifted with a switch that goes, "LEFT-TANK" and "RIGHT-TANK" and only then "OFF". This new found discovery couldn't have come at a better time!
Drive and discipline; two key ingredients to be acknowledged for who and what I am, no more, no less. Not for acclaim, not for approval, but, the simple truth of that recognition in myself that I am true to myself to go all the way for myself and by myself. I've fixed myself, reinvented myself, reestablished myself in the past but all for the wrong reason or more importantly for the wrong people. There's nothing wrong in doing something for someone else. No greater sacrifice than that and it's mighty admirable. BUT... You gotta do somethings more importantly for yourself.
It's all good; bring on 2014 I say....
