Melacca - Kuala Lumpur - Melacca

'weekends are precious', words an apek once said come ringing in my ears right now and hey apek, sorry i didn't pick up my phone, we'll do something next weekend when i come down, we'll catch a movie or something.

sometimes i feel like i'm living in a world that i'm not apart of, just living it for some purpose which i have completely no clue what. when was the last time i when to a club and sat there listening to Oasis' Don't Look Back In Anger, raised my Guinness and said, here's to life. or actually looked at something really nice and cute and just be happy for what it is, instead of feeling heavy that i don't have it. i wanna love everything for all the right reasons and not just because i don't have it. i wanna get up in the morning and love the cold shower because i love ice cold water and not because i don't have hot water. i wanna love driving because i AM a motor head not because i WAS a motor head. i wish i was who i am, not who i became over the years. i have had a great childhood, no doubt about that, its the greatest part of my life and that will always remain strong in me. something about today, coming home and taking my mom to temple, told me my childhood is over, time to grow up. i dunno how to explain it but its an overwhelming feeling that consumed me. i just gotta remember not to neglect that child in me, once in awhile take the little firecracker out for ice cream.

well on other matters...

work is good, still in training though. i notice how everyone (well not EVERYONE) love to sell their superior's name; 'oh, if you can do it than you explain it to the boss...'. the oldest trick in the book of intimidations. its a trick no doubt but only to the untrained eye but for those who strive on intimidation, me without saying much, the trick is merely fuel for my fire. i told myself from day one, i'm not here to please people, i'm here to do my job. i'm no superman, so nothing beyond the call of duty ehh. oh don't get me wrong, i'm in the Engineering business for the interest, not the money (not like there is much). then again, somedays i have no idea what they want me to do? i hope they know themselves, i hope.

so moving on...

what the hell is wrong with Manchester United, again? they are fucking up at the most crucial time in the league. i wanna slap Ronaldo for losing possesion all the time, slap Silvestri, Ferdinand and Van de Sar for all the sloppy defending, oh i wanna line all 36 players and staff of Manchester United Football Cllub and slap all of them.

and whats this about Michael Schumacher leaving Ferrari for Toyota? the man has done it all, the man has broke every record in Formula One (but one, number of pole positions, still held by Ayrton Senna), the man has dominated the sport like no other man, in any discipline. you name it, Schumacher is the biggest name in the sporting industry. side by side with a legacy of speed, Ferrari the man has done things far too many times and made them look far too easy. if you ask me, if he can cut it, he should run with it but if he can't, Toyota or Honda, ain't gonna make a difference. quit while you're still DA MAN.

okay, time to go to bed, need to drive to Melacca at 5 in the morning.